I am me. No more, no less. If you do not like me, whatever. Who
cares. I am not here to please anybody. Don't judge me. Only God can
judge me. Don't talk behind my back. That only shows how cowardly you
are. Say it to my face. I am not afraid. I already have been the "nice"
girl, the "oh-my-gosh-everyone-pity-me-I'm-weak" girl. I have had enough
of that. Now I am strong, confident, and sure as hell not afraid to
kick your ass. I am proud of myself, and not ashamed to say that. I have
probably been through more s**t than you ever will in your whole life.
Yeah, I'm not dirt poor, but I am not filthy rich either. I have flaws,
and I know it for a fact. I just try to hang on and navigate the waters
of life safely and soundly. I have gone through many storms, and will
get through many more. No one can bring me down, especially you. You are
not worth my time, my effort, even my breath. You are uselesss to me,
nothing but a passing moment. No matter what you say, or do, I will
always be strong, proud, and most importantly, me
Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more
pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet,
much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything
changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness
wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me,
my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t
know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever
do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and
think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times,
but never once into it.
